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November 28th, 2008 @ 12:54am
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Nathan and I broke up...

I just couldn't handle it anymore. He was getting more and more mean to me..saying things you should never say to your gf. He would never go anywhere with me, not even to the store. I remember this one time, i went to class all day and worked 5-10 and he stayed home playing video games all day. After work I called him and he was like "will you pick up some of those frozen raviolis in the bag?" and i was like "sure, if you'll make them" and he actually got mad at me for asking him to make them! he was like "i don't know how to boil water!!"
It was just getting ridiculous. He had no intention of getting a job or a car. basically I would be taking care of him for the rest of his life like he's 3 years old..and I just can't handle that. So it was time to go our separate ways. I'm hoping that one day he'll find someone that will be willing to take over his grandparent's place and take care of him. I mean, he hasn't been to class in a month and he's failing at least two classes. So yeah. It was just time to move on and go our separate ways.

Well, you see, the thing is...there's this guy. I really really like him. A lot...more than I've liked anyone in a long time...and he feels the same way about me. It's just that his ex gf is a psychopath. Our first date, she followed him to my apartment and stood outside the door and listened to our conversations. Yeahhh. and then, when he was trying to leave at like 2 am, she cornered him and started saying a whole bunch of stuff...and when he came back upstairs and I told him he could stay with me so he wouldn't have to go home that night, she flipped out and started knocking on the door until 4 am..and calling his phone 800 times..it was pretty scary..especially when she started calling my phone.
So she's been showing up at our work and threatening a whole bunch of stuff. She's pretty much the only thing holding us back from being together, because they still live together because they can't afford to move out. But we're hoping that she'll move out soon and his friend travis can move in..
Besides, we're both going to be busy studying for finals for the next couple of weeks..so we're not going to see much of each other until xmas break. But I'm really hoping that we get to date eventually when everything with nathan cools off and kayla either calms down or gets herself committed..whichever comes first. All i know is, he's the first person that I've kissed where I felt something.. and he's the only guy I've been with who I've actually wanted to sleep with. I know it sounds weird but usually I just sleep with them out of a feeling of obligation..but the stuff he does just makes me want to die sometimes..although we haven't had sex or anything like that yet. I mean I am seriously attracted to him physically, mentally, sexually..everything..and I really want him in my life. I would just hate to lose someone who I have such a strong connection with like that.

So that's what's been going on..right now i'm just trying to pass all of my classes so that I can actually buckle down and start working my ass off next semester...so hopefully everything will turn out okay and my next entry I'll be able to write about dating Justin..although I'm afraid that I've jinxed it already..that's how much I like him.

I think about this stuff way too much!

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